I Want to Save You ..*

wow

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 03:03:53 GMT

i just was looking over my l.j .. and its official .. i was such a loser last year haha . i was always pissed off and emo .

i actually might come back to livejournal, i miss it .. a little

this was really pointless . does anyone actually still do l/j ? let me know =]

hmm ..

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 21:44:29 GMT

since i havent updated since april .. maybe ill do a random pointless update

summer is pretty good . besides the fact that having 2 jobs sucks so i def have to quit one so i can stop working every day - and i have softball every night .. so its gay . very gay .

softball = drama . never had such a drama-filled season before .. i kinda cant wait for it to end .

field hockey starts soonnnn =] i can actually go to one of the practices tomorrow, wow . havent been to any yet . or ran . or did anything . props to me

field hockey camp = 2 weeks away .. then going down the shore for a week ? umm .. maybe not at this point lol .. then boston to see steph . then hell week for f/h .. then school ?

wowww thats scary . where did this summer go .. seriously .

♥ stay cool .

stolen from laur & the rest of the world

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 03:13:53 GMT

[x] I am straight.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[X] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[x] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[ ] I watch the news.
[X] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[X] I own an iPod or MP3.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[X] I love Disney Movies. (!!!!!!!! who doesnt)
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I paid for a ring tone
[X] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[X] I own something from Abercrombie.
[/] I have a job. (kindaa ..)
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am in love with love.
[X] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. (sometimes
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have scars.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish. (ridiculouslyyyyyyyy)
[ ] I see a therapist.
[X] I love white chocolate. (!!!!)
[x] I bite my nails. (a ton)
[/] I am comfortable with being me. (sometimes)
[X] I play video games. (hah when im reallllly bored)
[X ] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I've been lost in my city.
[X] I've seen a shooting star
[X] I've been to another continent
[X] Had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone one out in public in my pajamas
[ ] Made out w/ a stranger
[ ] Hugged a stranger(not that i remember)
[x] Been in a fist fight (hahaha, only w/ k10 . and my sister .. but they dont count)
[ ] Been arrested. (not yet)
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator (haha .. im a dork, what can i say)
[ ] Made out in an elevator (not yet)
[x] Swore at your parents
[/] Kicked a guy where it hurts (maybe when i was little ..? idk)
[ ] Been in love
[x] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving (not yet)
[x] Broken a bone
[ ] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[/] Saw a therapist (a longgg time ago)
[ ] Done the splits
[X] Played spin the bottle (not seriously though . as a joke)
[/] Gotten stitches (only staples .. eeeeeh)
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone (hahahaha)
[x] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Believe in a God
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Kissed a member of the same sex (eww)
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[X] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[X] Stole something from your job (a pen ? maybe)
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[X] Been to Europe (italy)
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day (maybe in italy .. idk)
[x] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[X] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show (when i was little . sooo scary back then)
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi ( I . LOVE . IT .. favorite food)
[ ] Been snowboarding
[X] Been Skiing
[X] Met someone in person from the internet (not intentionally)
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[ ] Had someone cheat on you
[ ] Would have sex with one person on your lj friends list (hmm .. maybe if they werent all girls, then this question would be relevant ..)
[ ] Would have sex with more than one person on your lj friends list
[ ] Would have sex with more than one person on your lj friends list at the same time

that was long . and a procrastination from sleeping & going to school . g'night .

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 23:14:18 GMT

hmm .. grounded on the last night of spring break ? of courseee .. goin out with a bang ;)

ohh well .. at least it was a decent spring break .

i cant believe we're so far into the school year . its went by so quickly, its ridiculous . freshman year was a total blurr . cant wait till summer

ridiculously pointless update . whateverrr lol ♥

yay spring break ♥

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 13:42:14 GMT

its finally here ! yay . too bad i cant go to tbs and have softball like every day . but its ok, i dont mind a ton .

i dont think i played good yesterday against hills . i 2 errors in the field, which is bad . my hitting was good, but idk . i still feel like i have to prove myself to everyone because im only starting because bri left .. and i havent done that yet . batting yeah but fielding no . gotta step it up soon .. i dont know whats wrong w/ me .

mrs gio came to the game too . lmao, shes cool . she told me she would never ever come to any of my games and she bet i couldnt even throw . and i turned around and she was there . it was awesome to see SHOEY again, i love her . and talked to her after .. and we decided we cant wait for the summer just for the fact that wildcats are crazy and we have more fun than any other team ive been on . i love love love them ♥

=( steph and lisa left for jamaica . amandas leaving today, and we havent hung out it a mad long time .

=) k10 allison lauren , softball girls & and other cool ppl are staying .

=/ marie & erin arent going to be gone the whole time . chill or bust .

hmm, thats about it for now . bye loves ♥

hello livejournal =)

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 01:39:37 GMT

i never update anymore . but this is pretty much everything thats been going on ..

softball is awesome, its actually fun now . the beginning kinda sucked, but in the past week or two things have started lookin up . plus, shaw is doing amazing .. and had a article written about her in the star ledger !! seriously, amazing at any age . let alone a freshman .. wow, no words . good for her, shes amazing and deserves it .. even if she spits ALL over herself on the bus . hahaha <3 or flings buggers at people . crazy girl .

i cant go to the tbs concert anymore =( i guess there'll be other ones . first soco, now this . goddddddd . the two i really wanted to go to .

got to see sammy yesterday !!!!!! <3 fcukin love her . we both dropped our bags and excepted the other one to run to the other one haha . and then she JUMPED on me . and menges stared at us like we were crazy . gotta love the softball girls .

cant wait until the summer, its going to be amazing . seriously .

i love spinella even though she stole my janitor boyfriend .

gunna miss steph & lisaaaaa next week . going to jamaica =*( . along with everyone else whos normal and goes away on spring break .. at least i have allison . and k10 . and the s/b girls since we're not allowed to go away . and a softball game every day ..? whoa, crazy . gunna be cool though

ONE MORE DAY <3 spring break in wayne ? yeah .. it'll be hott ;)

(happy?) easter .

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 03:51:24 GMT

"always remember 3/27/05

*make this an entry in your lj, show respect and always remember kv* "

R.I.P. Vece ♥ ♥ ♥
we'll never forget you.

. only the good die young <3 .

=/

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 17:48:26 GMT

sooo .. im thinkin that i should come back to l/j a little since ive been yelled at for not updating . like ever lol ..

fencing ended .. the dinner was friday, it was fun . this season was ok, i might end up actually coming back next year . even though i dont love it, its better than not doing anything in the winter . and i ended up willing my last 5 bouts in a row, evening out my record . i got a LOT better, so.. idk . anything is possible at this point . but, no matter my desicion i <3 the girls so much . seniors , expecially linds jenn & maddy .. u will be so unbelievably missed, you are all awesome people . and u better come back and visit !!!

softballs been kinda crazy the past week . today we found out what teams we were on . they said im a floater between jv and varsity and that ill bat and run for varsity, and play sometimes or if someone gets hurt in the infield . shaws the A pitcher . hell yeah . shannon is starting shortstop . and jenn eng is starting 2nd baseman . it sucks that one of the only 2 seniors left happens to be my position, kinda upset that out of us 4 im the only one without a permanent spot . but, thats life . i just got the bad luck .. next year will be better . and ill get a little varsity playing time this year, so whatever . i was really upset at first .. and still am .. but im trying .

oh well . tonight apparently i have this softball bowling party ..? hmm wtf. so i cant go to angus night <- which has been planned for like 2 weeks .

anything else that could happen to dissapoint me ? might as well tell me now while im still broken from everything else .

wow

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 19:20:58 GMT

yesterday was AMAZING . soo many awesome mems from one day ..not even gunna attempt to say em . cuz i will be here for a LONG time . but i had so much fun it was ridiculous . crazy times . santelli pix !

f.h game tonight @ 4 !! and i know i have the right time, cause everyone yelled 4 OCLOCK when they saw me today lol . thanksss =D

midterms bite the big one .

yeah, thats it . lol

"it's times like these when silence means everything.." <3 that song

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 17:19:34 GMT

these are really dumb and pointless .. sorry in advance =)

The Scary Truth About Your Friends (eddie izzard style) by Mellifera
username
Wants a "cup of coffee"	crazixbabi63
Hides their makeup in a tree	c0nfusedreamer
Vegetarian painter	_myhearthurts_
Was on the moon with Steve	ashezzz88
Poked a badger with a spoon	jaded_hearts
Puts babies on spikes	soda_girl
Can run about in heels and not fall over	xbeach_bum83x
Under house arrest	lacolombiana180
Carries a brick in their handbag	diip_it_l0w
Never played Risk as a kid	xx_oneandonly
Ich bin ein Berlinner	lil_x_dreamer

Quiz created with MemeGen!

If LJ Were a High School by Karen_Walker
Username
Your Status
Lunch Lady	x0_dreamer
Head Cheerleader	lacolombiana180
Quarterback	fashionxfever
Prom Queen	xx_shoe44
Gang Member	l0veisf0reverx3
Band Geek	xx_oneandonly
Theatre Geek	soda_girl
Chess Club Captain	purple_sky00
Loner Goth Kid	perfect_song
Class Clown	sarryl

Quiz created with MemeGen!

didnt go to the jv tournament today . going bright and early tomorrow (5:30AM!-7PM ahhh!) to santellis to be a slave for varsity . oh, joy =) . which means i gotta get all the midterm crap done today . greattt . be back never

hmm

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 22:45:38 GMT

so last night i was extremely bitter because everyone and their mother was at the soco concert . and i was not . so i was like grr all night . and beth is the most amazing person i have ever met. she called me (though i didnt answer my phone - goddamit !!!) from the concert . but she left a voicemail .. and i didnt know what it was at the time so i was like hmm what the hell ? i heard music but i couldnt figure out what it was lol . next time i will be there or i will kill myself <3 midterms or not . and i will buy muy own ticket, thanks =D .

beth touched andrew !!!! and the band gave her high fives as they left ! omg jealous . im gunna run up to her and jump on her tomorrow so it will almost be like i touched them . and was there . except really not .

=( oh well . next time .

today = pizza partay @ positanos - NO AWAD !!!!! hellayeahhhh . amazing . got stuck in the corner at a small table, but it was okay . sat by maddy, HALLIWELL (who complains i dont put her in here enough), jackie, stacey. oh .. and greco . didnt see aileen&crew, lins, jenn(s) at all . not very cool, oh well . whatever

spanish tomorrow = fcukin death . i really wish i would have had someone other than castro in gw . cuz i have noooo idea whats going on now . lol .. ahh, castro .. the good old days . when i used to just walk out in the middle of class when i didnt feel like being there anymore . or when we used to bribe her for good grades w. twinkies and other highly-sugared items . or when we didnt learn a WORD of spanish ... those were the days lol .

gunna go attempt to study . cause i actually brought home my book for this one lol .. im movin up in the world

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 03:32:30 GMT

sooo . my day in a nutshell .. bit the big one .
- midterm reviews . fcuk . dreading every single one . bio span2 honors eng alg2 & history . augh .
- pam katie & me taught in child development . injuries & all lol . pam likes being in charge all the time lol . so i feel like i do nothing like 70% of the time =( oh well, i think it went ok anyway
- practice was probably the worst one ever . drills drills drills . BORING as hell . kill me ...

the highlight of it was that was lisa threw me food as she was walking to her car .. and i ate it, forgetting it was lisa and that she's not usually that generous . so, the minute i put it in my mouth, 5 ppl go EWW . and im like ? . and they tell me that lisa dropped in on the skanky cafeteria floor . and i run, spit it out, and chase lisa all the way to her car . and when i catch her i realize i cant do anything, because if i hit her she'll hit me back like 40 times harder . and she still scares me .. a lot . lol . damn, that was dumb . NEVER trust lisa lol .

midterms blow . fencing blows lately . the way ive been playin in my f/h games blow (if i ever even show up at the right time) .

plus i get yelled at for the way ive been playing in f.h, which p.s.
doesnt make it better- thanks =D . ugh . no tolerance for assholes .

soco tomorrow .. OHHH, waitttt a minute ... nevermind .

wow, life is great right now

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 23:46:11 GMT

yay to delayed opening . yay to f.h game @ 5:35 tomorrow . yay to food =D

okay . im done . dont feel like writing ..

sOoOo everyone else is doing this . so i might as well, also .

1. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.

2. I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.

3. Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.

4. Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 02:22:20 GMT

so today was a really cool day ..

fencing had counties . it wasnt horrible . i stayed w/ gabby amanda kylie and jenn k (at the end when she was done) for the most part .. crazy times lol.
*ITS A LOCKER TO THE UNDERWORLD!* lmao

soo varsity didnt win as a team - but in individuals we ROCKED !! lisa seldeen came in 1st in the county for sabre .. and lindseyyyy came in 3rd! yea sabre ! oh, and greco came in 3rd county foil, and i felt bad cuz her last bout was actually kinda cheap shxt and i didnt like the events that went down . even if it was greco .. the girl shouldnt have won like that . gayness .

oh well, it was crazy . and ive never been so embarrased in my life .. to make a long story short, i told kylie gabby and amanda that this kid who came to see the tournament whos a junior from wv was hot . and then they told everyone lol .. and as we were waiting for the awards shxt to go down, someone told jenn .. and of course she was like GUESS WHAT and was beind loud lol (with help from maddy) . and everyone was talking about it and they thought i was like in love with him . so , my coach heard and decided to go over and talk to him about me (aka little short gay fencing man talking to this hot kid about me . i was a second away from suicide lol) . and miss d heard and was asking me about it lol very embarrassing . and lisa TOOK HIS PICTURE for me -- you are all such homos . i really hate you all lol

anyway, lindsey said im not allowed to go out with the kid (EVEN THOUGH I DONT LIKE HIM) because she said hes a jerk . and an asshole, and she wouldnt approve . i get the feeling no one likes him .. lol . cuz they said hes not a nice person .. but it doesnt matter anyway , because i have NO emotional attachment to him lol . i just said he was hot .

it was funny . quite scarring, but funny . good times today . being lisa's slave was cool cuz i actually didnt do anything anway . and i was the #1 sabre in the county's slave (haha that sounds cool .. almost lol) . and, plus - i get to be LINDSEY'S at santelli's - YAY . lindsey is so cool .. and did awesome today . yay *proudness*

NOO PRACTICE TOMORROW ! holllller ..

it better snow a shxtload . or i will be mad lol

yay to good times . yay to lindsey and lisa being amazing . yay to no practice . and yay to a f/h game monday !!! also .. YAY TO SNOW !!!!!

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 02:18:13 GMT

soo .. today was actually a good day ! lol

practice didnt suck as bad - got to go late cuz of a s/b meeting (yay softball!) . then we did nothing . it was cool lol

then we had a pasta/"chicken" party hahaha @ JENNs house !!!! it was probably the most fun ive had at any fencing event lol . it was ridiculous
- theres a BLACK car outside ! haha
- hair sniffing ! funniest thing ive ever seen
- soda incident =D
- chicken (obsessively lol) rice sushi peachyogurt .. and all those things aileen said that on noone was listening to lol
- C H I C K E N!
- "you're an asshole" lol . like 50 times haha gotta be a record

*sigh* . ahh, well good times . for once lol .

tomorrow = muy important just varsity tournament thing . which means each varsity person picks a not fencing jv person to be their bitch the entire night . aka personal slave for a couple of hours to LISA SELDEEN (who picked me as her bitch) - gahh gunna die . not looking forward to it .. ive given up my slave days, except to clean jenn's rug hahahaha . gunna be ..interesting .

oh well .. if im alive in 24 hours, then ill be lucky . lol . lisa's bitch from 3-8 .. GAH ! thats a lot of bags to carry, errands to run, waters to get . oh joy .

oh well =D

WOW . i was bored lol

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 00:25:22 GMT

Really Long Survey (over 200)
Created by starsbleed2nite and taken 61987 times on bzoink!
What is your name?	Michelle
Are you named after anyone?	before my grandma died (a lil bit before i was born) she alwayas called Nikki Michelle by accident? idk ... so they called me Michelle
What's your screename?	sportzprincess33 (since 3d grade . literally)
Would you name a child of yours after you?	no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?	Matthew
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?	idk ..
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?	micheLe . or marAconda
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?	no ..?
Basics
Your gender:	female
Straight/Gay/Bi:	straight
Single?	yup
If not, do you want to be?	..
Birthdate:	11-6
Your age:	15
Age you act:	hmm .. depends on who im around
Age you wish you were:	18
Your height:	5'4"
Eye color:	brown
Happy with it?	i guess ..
Hair color:	brown
Happy with it?	ehh .. dying it soon
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:	righty
Your living arrangement:	w/ the parentals .. kill me
Your family:	mom, dad, stephanie, nikki
Have any pets?	toby - dog .. ike - gerbil lol (mike died)
Whats your job?	being a lazy bum
Piercings?	ears
Tattoos?	not yet
Obsessions?	haha . hugh jackman <3
Addictions?	no
Do you speak another language?	not really (spanish doesnt count . i speak like literally 2 words .. and ive taken it since 6th grade lol)
Have a favorite quote?	ya . too lazy to type it tho
Do you have a webpage?	no
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?	yea .?
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?	most of the time . sometimes if im in a bitchy mood tho than not at all
Do you have any secrets?	yeah ..
Do you hate yourself?	sometimes
Do you like your handwriting?	not really
Do you have any bad habits?	biting my nails like whoa
What is the compliment you get from most people?	that im funny . and my stupidity combined w/ sarcasm provides good entertainment =D
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?	boring . my life would be the worst movie ever .. even I wouldnt see it
What's your biggest fear?	hmm ..
Can you sing?	not really - but i do anyway ! lol
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?	no
Are you a loner?	idk
What are your #1 priorities in life?	hmm
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?	probably
Are you a daredevil?	yes . i do anything lol
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?	umm .. my inability to ever talk about my problems w/ anyone .
Are you passive or agressive?	ehh a mixture . a lil more agressive tho
Do you have a journal?	l/j
What is your greatest strength and weakness?	strength = idk . weakness = my inability to ever talk about my problems w/ anyone . or communicate
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?	umm .. what i just said above?
Do you think you are emotionally strong?	yes
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?	definitly
Do you think life has been good so far?	not bad, not bad ..
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?	hmm
What do you like the most about your body?	umm not much . my eyes? idk ! lol
And least?	MY NOSE . AUGHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
Do you think you are good looking?	not really
Are you confident?	in most things, yeah . some insecuritys in others tho
What is the fictional character you are most like?	idk ..
Are you perceived wrongly?	idk . depends on how i am percieved
Do You...
Smoke?	no
Do drugs?	no
Read the newspaper?	ehh sometimes if im bored
Pray?	not really
Go to church?	..on easter & xmas lol
Talk to strangers who IM you?	no
Sleep with stuffed animals?	shuttup i <3 stuffed animals lol .
Take walks in the rain?	i <33333 walking in the rain . snow . everything
Talk to people even though you hate them?	yes, cuz most ppl i hate dont know i hate them lol . unless i EXTREMELY hate you and you know it . then i just ignore you all together lol
Drive?	no =(
Like to drive fast?	i cant drive ..
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?	not really
Hurt yourself?	not intentionally . i fell down the stairs once though ..
Been out of the country?	yup . italy canada & bermuda (idk if that counts tho)
Eaten something that made other people sick?	haha probably . i eat whatever
Been in love?	hmm maybe
Done drugs?	nope never
Gone skinny dipping?	no
Had a medical emergency?	haha ya -fell down the stairs when i was 3 and cracked my head open lol . then fell down the stairs & sprained my ankle in 8th grade . and had my appendix removed
Had surgery?	ya had my appendix removed
Ran away from home?	yup lol . good stories .
Played strip poker?	hah
Gotten beaten up?	by my sisters ..
Beaten someone up?	kristen =D lol
Been picked on?	not really ..?
Been on stage?	no
Slept outdoors?	girl scoutin days =D
Thought about suicide?	not seriously
Pulled an all nighter?	ya
If yes, what is your record?	i dont remember . i just didnt sleep ..?
Gone one day without food?	yeah . not fun
Talked on the phone all night?	no
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?	haha
Slept all day?	yea
Killed someone?	? wtf no
Made out with a stranger?	no
Had sex with a stranger?	no
Thought you're going crazy?	all the time
Kissed the same sex?	noo
Done anything sexual with the same sex?	no
Been betrayed?	yea
Had a dream that came true?	yeahhhhh
Broken the law?	not that i kno of
Met a famous person?	i dont think so
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?	no
On purpose?	no ..?
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?	haha yeah =X
Stolen anything?	no
Been on radio/tv?	yeah
Been in a mosh-pit?	no
Had a nervous breakdown?	ehh . we wont go there
Bungee jumped?	no
Had a dream that kept coming back?	YEAH . creepy
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?	i guess
Miracles?	idk . yeah
Astrology?	not really
Magic?	no
God?	most of the time
Satan?	idk
Santa?	YAY SANTA !
Ghosts?	hmm
Luck?	yea
Love at first sight?	lustt . not actual love
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?	i guess
Witches?	no
Easter bunny?	of course
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?	yes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?	definitly =D
Do you wish on stars?	sometimes
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?	yes i suppose
Do you think God has a gender?	male? idk .
Do you believe in organized religion?	idk
Where do you think we go when we die?	heaven or hell ..? idk deep questions
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?	yes
Who is your best friend?	probably katie .
Who's the one person that knows most about you?	.. kristen
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?	idk
Your favourite inside joke?	hmm .. tough one . possibly the cranberry incident =D lolol . we wont go there
Thing you're picked on most about?	the stupid things i say lol . or the cranberry incident (again) lol
Who's your longest known friend?	steve
Newest?	lisa morano !! my <3
Shyest?	we are ALL not shy
Funniest?	shaw !
Sweetest?	spinella
Closest?	katie
Weirdest?	MOZEEEE . by far lol <3
Smartest?	stephanie ..? i guess lol . haha THATS a scary thought
Ditziest?	kristennnnnnn
Friends you miss being close to the most?	sb team ! <3
Last person you talked to online?	pags
Who do you talk to most online?	idk . prob katie
Who are you on the phone with most?	kristen , maybe . im not a phone person . but we cud talk for HOURS about the dumbest stuff
Who do you trust most?	hmm .. prob all of them
Who listens to your problems?	kristen
Who do you fight most with?	KRISTEN . lol
Who's the nicest?	danielle
Who's the most outgoing?	shawwww
Who's the best singer?	kristen
Who's on your shit-list?	hahaha she knows who she is
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?	no
Who's your second family?	the ryan family <3 i live there lol
Do you always feel understood?	not really
Who's the loudest friend?	shaw . by far
Do you trust others easily?	not really
Who's house were you last at?	lisa's . been cooped up all weekend damn teeth
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:	=D
Do your friends know you?	yeah ..?
Friend that lives farthest away:	idk
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?	no ? what ?
What do you find romantic?	a lot of stuff
Turn-on?	eyes . lips
Turn-off?	bad breath
First kiss?	lets not even bother to go there hahaha
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?	i dunno
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going	know before u date them i guess
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out	sometimes
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv	haha yeah
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?	idk no
What is best about the opposite sex?	idk i dont like these questions lol . personal
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?	egos
What's the last present someone gave you?	allisons cd collection =D even though it was only to borrow, still amazing
Are you in love?	hmm questionable
Do you consider your significant other hot?	=D
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?	?
You wanted to kill?	haha
That you laughed at?	jen menella . shes so funny lol
That laughed at you?	the fencing ppl . cuz i was acting really dumb lol
That turned you on?	hmm lol good one .
You went shopping with?	my momma lol
That broke your heart?	sad questions
To disappoint you?	she knows who she is
To ask you out?	hmm
To make you cry?	my sister =(
To brighten up your day?	idk . shaw is good at it in the morning lol
That you thought about?	shaw .. when i just typed the answer to the last one ..?
You saw a movie with?	my sister
You talked to on the phone?	my aunt lol . currently multi-tasking
You talked to through IM/ICQ?	pags
You saw?	my dad
You lost?	? hmm
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?	no
Will it be with your significant other?	no
Or some random person?	no
What are you wearing right now?	pajamas
Body part you're touching right now:	wow lol . im typing, so not touching any ..? sickos
What are you worried about right now?	odyssey test tomorrow . gassppp
What book are you reading?	profo . goddamn honors english
What's on your mousepad?	dell? lol
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:	tired bored lazy stupid procrastinative (<- def. not even a word lol)
Are you bored?	YES
Are you tired?	yes
Are you talking to anyone online?	no my comp is being a homosexual
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?	not anymore
Are you lonely or content?	inbetwewn
Are you listening to music?	yes
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Sun, 16 Jan 2005 18:30:16 GMT

soo . i feel like absolute shit . this weekend bit the big one .

friday, hung out w/ the girls @ lisa's .. that was the only good part .

saturday morning i had to have a root canal (wtfff who gets one before they are like 50) .. but its cuz i got hit in the mouth or something and it ruined the nerves in one of my teeth . soo, i go . get the first part done (its 3 parts) .. and the dude is all like .. we cant cover it cuz its bleeding so muchl, so right now theres an open fcukin hole in my tooth . so right now im in more pain then ive ever been in in my life . worse than when i got my appendix removed . or when a girl stepped on my face playing softball - and i cant eat ANY solid food (goddamn it sucks), and i cant have anything cold cuz the nerve is exposed and that will like shock me and it will be painful . basically the only things i can have for a week are soup, cocoa, and tea . and i dont sleep at night cuz i turn and i end up laying on it and wake up crying cuz of all the pressure i put on it .

ughhhhhhhhh !!!

then, to top off that being horrible . i cant even play in my game tomorrow .. cuz i cant even close my mouth, let alone hold onto a mouth guard for 20 minutes without estreme pain . besides, the tooth is ridiculously fragile .. and if i get hit then its really gunna suck =(

so right now , im home alone . my parents are in boston moving in stephanie =( . nikkis not home (shocking) and we are OUT OF TEA . and VANILLA CHAI . i think im gunna kill myself . urget starbucks trip needed .

arg .. gunna go drug myself to sleep, since there is nothing else to do in this house . and i now have a 101 fever ..

yay to this weekend being HORRIBLE .

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 00:56:01 GMT

hmm .. so today was a better day than usual ..

fencing meet today, we lost . coach left early, and he was an ASSHOLE, as usual . so we had a secret meeting w/ miss d - and she is THE COOLEST PERSON EVERRRRR . everyone <3s her cuz she is totally cool . and dislikes him just as much as we do . YAYYYYYY, it was cool. she is awesome

coach was a complete dick to maddy . and no one can be mean to maddy, shes just too cool . ughhhhhhh what a jerk ! and she told him off - 10 more points on the coolness scale . you gotta love her . and lins . and jenn .

oh, and i forgot to say how LOvELY it was that when i was carrying the fencing equipment today, ashley decided to moon me . twice . AUGH - not even gunna go there, scarring experience ..

SOOOO - im probably not gunna fence monday and switch . which means i wont be fencing again until january 26th cuz of lack of meets - aka a LONG TIME away . ughh , this is not working . i have to figure something out . maybe ill go to the meet, leave for an hour for the game, and come back a 5:50, when theres still like 40 minutes-ish . i might still be able to fence twice .. arg .. i suck at time managment, this bites the big one .

not fencing till the 26th wud be back . thats a helluva long time away from last monday (aka last time i was in a meet) . and besides, im going to be muy emo that day for lack of something corporate in my life =( still very upset about them being sold out . augh .

soo, today in english .. it was quite entertaining (talking about how the maids in the odyssey sleep w. the suitor..and it was considered wrong)
Random person: I dont get it .
Teacher: Okay, well let me put it by todays standards . Lets say that you HATE this person, they are mean . you cant stand them . this would be like your good friend going out with them .

ha, i found it funny . in an ironic kinda way ..

and we did the whole climbing thing in gym for project adventure .. and i had the wall . i like stuff like that, so i went first, and i was one notch away from the top when i had nowhere to put my foot . so at the time it seemed like a good idea to just attempt to like jump lol cuz im short . well, i missed lol . and the kid let me fall like 15 ft before breaking . and it was fun lol . but in a really scary-im-about-to-die kinda way .

tomorrow = LISAS . after fencing (ugh) . yay

things are starting to get a lil better .. besides time management issues and noooo free time, everything is not as aweful . and im back to being friends w. every person but 1, but thats ok .. by now ive come to accept that fact that we just wont be friends . and i learned to deal with it - since she wont talk to me and cuz shes not talking to me i wont talk to her . w/e not going there .

yay to starting to be un-emofied .

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 23:08:47 GMT

so . not a thing interesting has happened . still very emo, nothing can seem to make me feel better . nothing .

meet tomorrow -> oh waiitttt, i odnt even get to fence . cuz of the whole "2 JV" thing .. and of course, im off the one day i can fence .. and i have a meet monday, when i have a f/h game so i have to leave early . its just ironic how nothing ever works out . ever .

maybe something good will happy tomorrow - oh waitttt .. maybe not .

edit: i forgot to add how today is exactly 4 weeks . almost to the minute from the last words .

im moving on .

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 23:05:13 GMT

ugh . today blew the big one . no, scratch that . my life blows the big one .. all of it .

i am so fed up with .. life . all of it . i hate people . i hate how my life has changed so much in the past 2 months, and its just gradually getting worse and worse . i hate how i constantly fight with the people i care about most in life .. the ones i love more than anyone else .

so my sister is going back to college hating me . im in a fight w. like 3 people .. and theyre the ones that mean the most to me in the world . and i dont think one of these fights will ever be fixed, ever .

i hate how im so bad about solving my problems and blow it into one huge deal when its not .

i hate how im bad at talking to people . especially about the important stuff .

i hate how im a bitch .

i hate how my sarcasm pushed people away .

i hate how i fight with the people i care about most, and in the end im going to be left with no one .

i hate that i cant talk to people . EVER . and wait for the other person to fix it .. cuz it doesnt always work like that .

most of all .. i hate MYSELF .

today is just one of those days where im going to lie around, listen to adams song, and cry my life away .

I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?

soooo ...

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 02:33:00 GMT

to sum up this weekend

friday : grounded, chilled with the sister . watched father of the bride, beat eachother up with wrapping paper rolls/other random objects found around my room

saturday : spent all goddamn day/night at jannas trying to finish a project w/ lisa k10 kerry allison & chrissy .. and still didnt finish . was ridiculously funny though - such good times ..

today : went to CCD for a chastity class -> LMAO . sat by molly (absoletly hysterical), and got bumper stickers and keychains that say "Chastity is a Lifestyle" (but no t-shirts, darnit =( .. ). funniest class ever . ridiculous - and saw katies braces .. she looks like a studd no matter what =D iluuu

then, went to lisa's to finish the video project . amazingly funny .. i got to wear a plastic bag & kerry wore a different wigs every time . hahaha, crazy times . we are all going to lisa's this friday, even though the project is over . cuz it was that awesome .. lmao

FIELD HOCKEY GAME TOMORROW ! - wOoOt rutgers <3 cant wait . and im not going to fencing for it =D yayayayay (i wasnt fencing anyway, so ..) . its gunna be very cool, looking forward to it . 4:50 . yay ..

well, this weekend turned out to be really cool, despite all teh project-ness and grounded-ness

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 14:55:14 GMT

school yesterday was gay . the pep rally was ehh . teh only entertainment was jenn's marvelous story about her & "the button incident" while they were up there making a speech . funniestttt thing i think ive ever heard . then me & lindsey walked to her car and i drove in it for the first time .. very cool - then practice was bORRRRRRRRIng . except for the fact that the coach asked steph to come work with the sabres .. that was pretty cool . shes awesome and left handed (which is an advantage), so everyone was like whoa . its cool to have her around again ..

so last night i was grounded, again . but this one was actually for a good reason lol . my room was an absolute DISASTER and my mom just completely flipped out .. it was the worst it had ever been.. and if uve seen it, u kno its been pretty damn bad before .. but it was aweful .. and she said if i went out she'd take out the computer (gasppp . life w/o my computer is now unthinkable)

so i had to stay home and clean it - it took 3 HOURS with stephanie helping the entire time .. shes going back to school in a week, and i wont see her until easter .. unless my parents drive me up to see her -which is weird, cuz then my parents will be there . ick . or nikki .. but id rather kill myself than sit for 4 hours in a car with satan - 5 minutes is torture enough .

no practiceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee - yay . but im still up early, ugh .

monday .. not goin to the meet cuz im not fencing anyway and i have a f/h game (yAy!) . and possibly goin to gw again to see feitlin & hags & all the other cool ppl .. should be cool, havent seen em since like the summer .

im hungry . going to get food . yay .

later <3

The words you scribbled on the walls
With the loss of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know

Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and
they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.

10 MoNtHs TiLL mY bDaY =D (random . just saw the date and was like whoa)

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 01:42:05 GMT

so, january the 6th was quite a good day.

won for the first time in fencing =D .. i fenced someone really bad - but i dont care lol i won 5-1 - so yay to that =D . and the mats were RETARTED - and they were so messed up, so 11 and a half ppl fell over(one girl stumbled but didnt completely fall)! including me linsdey maddy jenn - and one girl even took out the other girl - LOL funniest thing ive ever seen . and both jv and varisty won, so it was a very good day .

the ride home was amazing lol . greatest thing everrr . greco ( =D yay! ) and seldeen ( =( boo! ) went home early, so it was just maddy jenn and lindsey in the back .. and we each had our own seat, and we talked the ENTIRE time . it was hysterical .. and our coach started dancing to cher, which was the utimate in scary cuz hes like short odd fencing dude . he looked like a retarted parrot -- LMAO . then we told ridiculous stories .. they made fun of me for knowing the words to every single song that would come on .. and, of couse, like every time i see her arm, i made fun of lindsey for the sunless tanning incident, which we have still refused to let her live down . and never will - EVER ! and we talked about how lindsey breeds her own words and makes up her own ridiculous expressions lol .. lindsey's ridiculous words:
- hobo
- momo
- numbskull
- my personal favorite, a nummy..? (breeding between numbskull and dummy - lmao)
- many many many more

it was probably the best ride home ever on fencing ..and the best ride up cuz i sat next to seldeen and we talked the entire time . about everythin u could ever think of . shes very chill also .

tomorrow = pep rally . boo to that . hmm, maybe im coming down with a cold ..
gunna go download 30 more cds onto my ipod - woot to ALLISON ! =D =D =D

later <33

my quizzzz

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 02:23:10 GMT

http://www03.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz_IM.php?quizname=050105205421-192138&email=&c=1&a=01

you all best take it ..

think of it this way , you def. cant do much worse than biz lol - lmao 22 hahahaha

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 23:52:30 GMT

before i get all pissed and write about my charming day .. i must say congrats and happy bday to beth!!!!!!, who is like the most amazing person ever .

sooo -- today got into a muy large argument with my coach, cuz he's a complete asshole . i told him from DAY ONE that field hockey is ridiculously more important to me .. so he knew that . and now theres this gayass jv fencing policy where we only fence every other meet (WtFFFF). and monday, i have both a fencing meet and a f/h game - so i was like "could i switch groups so i fence tomorrow instead and i can go to my f/h game on monday when i wont be fencing .. since im not gunna fence tomorrow anyway, i cud just switch it that way i cud do both" . and he didnt get it .

finally, maddy - my SAVIOR, heard the convo and understood what i was trying to say (even though it was very obvious to anyone with a brain . hes was just trying to piss me off) and came over and suggested i switch with a girl who wasnt in school today, so she didnt kno if she was fencing or not tomorrow anyway .. maddy rocks man . i owe her my life .

.. i ridiculously hate this dude . he is going to be the death of me .. i extremely cant stand him .. at all . i really HATE him argh .. it almost as deep as my miss hecht hate (gasppp! - that seems almost impossible)

so now i get to go f/h =D . and i get to fence tomorrow (not that i care that much) . but im still pissed that hes such as asshole . argh !!!